Ornament death by my life

Trying to ornament death by my life

Trying to ignite stress and frustration 

Trying to kill my presence by their knife 

Trying to leave this husk is obsession 

No will to worry if it will be hard

I'm sorry, my teary heart is fading 

So finally the death becomes my guard 

But still my sorrow is not evading 

O blameless death, why can't I feel the peace?

They are weeping and pain growing stronger 

The sky has no clouds but the rain won't cease 

Can do nothing but feel woe for longer 

I did so wrong by life and been unwise

Don't know how to arise and see sunrise 

When she changed- part 2 (a story)

 We told everything to my brother kimasha. "What the hell? That's so cheap work. Let's go ellie." Brother said. We gathered some of our friends and went to ellie's place. We told her parents everything. As expected, they got angry on ellie but after some moments their love for her got the better of them and they agreed to take legal action. Then they went to police. Ellie and I stayed together there and everyone else went home. No need to be worried ,your parents will do everything they can to solve this. She was a little bit happy now. We talked and it was almost evening. Her parents returned and said that police is taking care of it. That was a relief for us. I said bye to ellie and went home. Mother was doing some work but brother was not here. I thought he came back home. I helped mother with her work then I went to the cliff. Surprisingly bro was there. What are you doing here bro? Where were you? You didn't came home. "Nothing I was just thinking about father. The way he died, the woman who falsely accused him of misbehave and he couldn't handle it and killed himself." Why are you even thinking about that? That time is gone and we should move on bro. "You also can't forget that. Every day you come here. Can you change?" I don't know but why all of a sudden you are telling me this? What happened? "Its not easy to do anything against that boy. His family is rich and powerful. I went along with ellie's parents to the police. Everything went well and we were on our way home. That boy and his friends came. They didn't have the courage to face her parents so they threatened me. They will hurt ellie if I don't die so that it can breakour will to go against them." My heart was beating faster and tears came out. I grabbed him and said, no bro if this is true then let's go and face them. Death is not the solution and there is no guarantee that they will leave her after this. "I have no choice, their peoples are spying on me so I have to do it." But why? Why do you want to sacrifice yourself? Do you...love her or anything? "No its not that. But if she get hurt because of me then I can't forgive myself. And please tell mother and everyone else that I am missing, not dead. Ellie can't handle this. I am sorry and goodbye sis." He said this and pushed me then jumped. I was broken and cried on and on there. 

Few days passed. I told everyone that bro is missing only. Ellie and my friends helped me to find him. Ellie was very frustrated about all this because it was going on for too long and there was no result of the case. She changed from an innocent girl to a girl who can fight for herself with her loved one's support. She was concerned about bro too as he helped her a lot. Mother was crying day and night and me, well I hated death even more. One evening I was on my way to the cliff and saw that someone was sleeping there. I couldn't tell who was there from distance but when I came closer then saw that ellie was beaten and was bleeding too much. She wasn't dead but she was close to. I rushed to her quickly and tried to wake her up but she didn't responded. I hated myself that I couldn't prevent my father or brother's death and now it's my friend. I was helpless and I thought that if really there is a shinigami here then help me please. There started a black flame in front of me. And a voice said that "she will die if you don't trade anything in return equal to her life." Then take those life who hurt her. "Their lives are not owned by you so I can't take it. I know you hate dying but you have to accept the truth." I thought what should I do. I can't die now, but she will die if I don't. "You don't have much time to think." Alright you win. Take my life and return her. "Are you sure about this? It's the end that you are asking." Yes do it. I can't let my bro's blood go in vain and I believe in her, she won't give up ever. And please make disappear my body, I don't want her to feel that guilt and pain. "You are brave, girl." Can you return my father and brother? "Yes I can but you have give two life in return, can you do it?" No I was just asking. If they became alive then there will be no point of death. I am accepting the whole truth now. I thought that, hear me brother I am changing too and I am moving on. As tears rolled down my eyes I said the shinigami to do it. "Okay as you say, girl."

When she changed- part 1(a story)

 Yo, what's up? I am misaki. I am a 18 year old girl and blah blah blah. You don't need to know the details now. Let's just start the story. I was on my way to the cliff near my house. There was ocean below the cliff and a great view too. Every evening I come here and remember my father here. Yes he died on this spot. Who is that? Someone was there before I came today. Usually no one likes to come here because there were many deaths before. Oh its you Ellie, what are you doing? "Nothing, I was just enjoying the sunset." She is my friend so I sat down and we started talking. "You come here every evening right?" Ya the ocean engulfs my sorrow hahaha. "Huh very funny, don't you get scared?" Scared of what? The shinigami, according to rumors? I hate dying, even if it's real I won't go down easily. But why are you here all of a sudden? "Did you finished the assignment that teacher gave us?" She didn't answer my question, as if she is hiding something. No it's not finished yet. I don't understand why are we even doing those assignments? After checking, it's all going to be in dustbin. Stupid system we have. "Ya you are right but we can't do anything really." We talked and don't know when time passed so fast and it was night. "Hey it's late now, let's go back. I don't want the shinigami to take my life." Alright let's go. When we turned back to go, we saw a man. He was covered in blood and walking towards the edge of the cliff. We were shocked. "What's he doing? It seems as if he is in someone else's control." Hey man can you hear me? We can call somebody to help. He didn't answer. We were going back slowly without making a sound. He stood at the edge for a minute and looked at the bright moon and just jumped. We got scared and were trembling at that moment. How can he do something like this? "Run, I am not feeling good now so let's go please." We ran as fast as we could and got out of there. We reached my home and still we were in shock. "What just happened? Misaki, you know I heard that everytime when someone dies there, there was blood in that area and they jump into ocean. It can't be any coincidence that everyone dies in the same way." Yes I know that ground took many people's blood. Listen stop thinking about that now and go to your home. I know after seeing all that you can't but please try to sleep. I was scared so I know how she must be feeling. "Okay let's meet tomorrow, bye." She left and I entered my home. My mother and big brother were waiting for me to have dinner. Brother was 22 years old. I couldn't tell them anything. I had my dinner silently and then I try to sleep but I couldn't. That man jumping and my father's face are the only things I was thinking. 

I woke up next morning. Don't know when I fell asleep. I finished my work and after sometime Ellie was here. She was upset. "Good morning. How are you feeling today?" Ya not to worry. What about you? You look a little upset. Is it because of yesterday? You can tell me anything . "I couldn't sleep at night. It was too scary and hey someone else died this morning there. I heard on my way here." Leave it. It makes me sick knowing about death. I couldn't blame her it was really scary for me too. Why are you upset and I think yesterday you were hiding something right? She was silent. I could tell its serious. "Okay to be honest, some days ago my boyfriend asked me some of my private pictures. At first I felt awkward and he said he won't talk if I didn't so i send it. And now he is kind of indirectly blackmailing me." What? Are you crazy? As soon as he demanded it you should have blocked and broke up. Why did you even send it? "For 4 years we are together but he never asked it, I don't know what happened now." You fool he was just gaining your trust these years. Its not love it's just lust. Did you tell your parents? "No am scared to tell them about this. My father is very strict." When you need something why do you tell your parents then? They deserve to know this and they can solve this too. Okay first let's tell my brother and some of our trusted friends. We all will go and tell your father. Don't worry it will be alright.